-Don't tap on the glass, the fish don't like it. It vibrates their world and shakes things out of place. "Boom! Boom!" your oily finger slams into the walls of their carefully structured ecosystem, bringing chaos to their order and menace to their peace. And even after you've left, there is a smudge on the glass - a memory of your uninvited intrusion and a hindrance to their vision.

Having trouble holding on. There is much to do and far too little time to fit it all in. Priorities are about to be struck, a friend or two about to be disappointed...

Again, i can't connect. If I can't connect with you - it's very hard to feel the reason for being friends. It's hard to love when I'm not sure if I know you. Possible but hard - and draining when I see you connecting with others so that I begin to doubt my place.

Don't tap the glass.

That's it. This is what is wrong.

-I can't connect-

**Galen likes this photo for some reason** I think it was air guitar, or i was just pounding the bed...yeah.

Haha, what a lame post that was.

Okay so here's the scoop - I got home from work today and I felt lonely. Not sure why - you know that unexplained loneliness that creeps up on you and then just kind of sits in the back of your mind? That sort. The gloomy sort. Ugly. I think it may have something to do with wanting a relationship. I'm starting to get a little impatient - tired of waiting for that perfect person, and second guessing myself hoping I haven't passed her by.

10:11 and I should go to sleep. Four AM comes early on a Thursday morning in the rain. Goodnight.

So I think trevor was trying to hint at something. Quick sterile update:

Fifty-nine days until my 21st birthday. This is very exciting to me as fun shall be had, experimentation shall be undertaken, and trevor and i shall become rich through the brewing of incredible beers.

For anyone who hasn't heard and for some reason still visits this blog despite the absence of updates - I have been hired by the Cheney Fire Department for their resident program. This is exquisite news (no congrats, please) and hopefully the beginning and end of my "career search." To interview for this position I had to leave Disney early - July 27th instead of August 18th. Truthfully I was glad to be leaving early at the time - ready to move on from my 'not so glamorous' job, tired of the 6-7 day weeks, tired of not having a car. Sad to leave the people tho - sad not to experience graduation and finish out having gone through the whole program with them. It was a good experience tho - and I would do it again had i known beforehand what it was really going to be like.

Anyway, after two weeks of doing not working (fantastic) financial uncertainty forces me to find work again. Currently I'm going between warehouse work and doing maintenance labor for a school district. Ah well, only a week and a half or so and then it's fun with steve and off to save people in september. On that note - i'm back into running every day. Best way of betting in shape - bar none. Mix distance running with sprinting hills and 'gassers' - it works. Also i don't know what it is about the gym in Bonney Lake - but i feel like the weight workout i get there is just a much better quality one then i get anywhere else. Like their weights are more...dense or something. meh, k i'm out.